“Our truest life is when we are in our dreams awake.”

                                                                                Henry David Thoreau

I used blog about how life was giving me hell and situations that I was in. But as I grow older, all those things become more and more minor. I believe happiness lies in what we choose to perceive from external forces.

I’ve known this friend for 4 years, I used to like her A LOT =P, but as time went by, I realised that I know her even lesser. I try to talk to her nowadays but I guess life is being very harsh on her; with school and whatnot. But hey, the path we should choose to take is the path that we should endure. I firmly believe that she is strong enough to get through everything alone. But I see her suffering.

I don’t really know how to talk to her because she’s changed, she keeps most of her feelings inside or tells it to other people besides me. Well, I don’t find her actions particularly ‘mind boggling’  because I have drifted away from her but as a rather old friend, I would very much want to know what’s going on in her life. Will she let me? I have no idea.

To Qi Qi ^^

Hey, It’s my first letter to you (I think) =) You’ve written me countless letters (maybe just 4 or 5?) but I have nonetheless, appreciated every single letter that you have wrote/verbally told me through the phone. 

I’m finding it so awkward to talk to you online about this, so I’ll just post here and get you to read it! Heh!

Anyways, I read your blog and it seems like there’s nothing that makes you half as cheerful as what you used to be. It really dampens my mood to know that you’re feeling whatever you’re feeling.

You used to call me every now and then to talk and we would enjoy one another’s company. Your tears I’ve felt through the phone and your colourful personality I’ve come to know, it was all delightful.

But after you’ve gone to JC, everything’s changed hasn’t it? Added pressure and stress, is one of your many reasons and You’ve never been quite the cheerful one anymore. What happened? I want to know. You’ve always been the ‘Sunshine’ girl in my life but now I just wonder, are the events in your life,now, clouding out that brilliant radiance?

It’s absolutely true that JC life is an arduous path, but have you ever wondered why you are in one now? Is it just to live day by day with no aim in mind?

From what I see now, JC has moulded you into such a “hardship taker” and you’ve become edified by it. You’ve become even stronger as a person and definitely a person who can take massive amounts of stress.

You feel like there’s no one left that appreciates what you do, but frankly, I appreciate you still talking to me and trying to not doze off =D I’ve appreciated the sharing through the long hours of phone talks we had, not to long ago, about your life. I still keep the lovely handmade birthday card you gave me in 08, I appreciate YOU. 

 Things that you do for people may not always be reciprocated, but it really shows your character and their character. If they choose not to reciprocate you, then just leave them be. Your efforts are never wasted as everything and anything happens for reasons that are beyond our comprehension at the moment. And as quoted from The Joker, “It’s all part of the plan..” so just continue your applauding effort in whatever you’re doing now.

Can I be the one you would tell everything to again? I’m always listening. And I know some things you’re too lazy to type online so just call me =)

I really hope this makes sense to you because I’m just typing thoughts that have been hovering in my mind for the past couple of days.

From your friend,

Jeremy